I Forgive you
I was upset,I was angry with him.
So many questions in my mind hunting for an answer that can relieve my pain.
Why did he let me go? Why he didn't stop me when i was leaving?
I was wondering if that feeling of love that i felt for him was it real or fake? The time that we have spend together, sharing precious moments, does that mean nothing to him?
So many why's but no one to answer. That silence,was killing me.
After crying for hours and pitying myself, i was trying to understand what i feel for him now? How should I react? Of course there was so much anger in me. I wanted to blame him, shout at him but i was still not feeling better by doing that.
I was getting restless. I wanted to understand what i really want? what can make me feel better?
And suddenly I heard a voice from within saying "Forgive".
I was surprised as how can I think of something as foolish as forgiving someone who has given me so much pain.But somehow that word was again and again flashing in my head hence I thought of giving it a thought. Honestly, more and more I was thinking of forgiving him, my anger, my restlessness was fading.
I realised that the feeling of " Forgiveness " was actually connecting me back to that feeling of love which was healing my pain.
I realised that Love remains Love and it can never be turned to hatred and if it happens then it is not love.
I realised that I can't think bad for him because a part within me (my heart) is still in love with him and may be I will love him forever.
I realised if love is true then that feeling of love will never change for that person, even if that person changes and leaves you alone.
I decided to forgive him. I decided not to bother him with my " Why's.
I decided not to blame him or seek for any explanations from him.
I locked those unanswered questions in my heart forever.
I don't want to know if he feels good by hurting me, if he has ever loved me?, if it was all fake or if it was true? I just know one thing that i love him and my love was true.
I made a promise to myself to keep my promise of loving him forever otherwise if i also broke my promise then I am no different from him.
I forgive you my love for forgetting me.
Take care.
Written By
Anubhuti Srivastava
